My heart hurts, my chest feels heavy and I don't know what to do. All but 20 mins ago I felt perfectly fine and now I feel so sad. I wish I could shake this but how do you shake something like love, I don't want to but when it hurts this much over so little I want it gone. I wish I could explain or even feel something I understand but I don't, these feeling change from one min to another. One moment I feel so good I could take on the world and 5 mins later something clicks and I feel as low as mud. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this I have no idea how to say how much I hate this. It sucks and I want to say that its not worth it to feel like this but I can't say that cuse at one time it felt so good. Ya it felt good, then someone screws up and then the other person screws up on a bunch of small stuff and then it just blows up and you can't take it anymore and you have no idea why but you just can't otherwise you'll forever be something you don't want to be and then you feel weak and you want that piece of you to die that hurts so its gone forever. That piece of me didn't die yet, its just sitting there in great pain. It's too strong to die but its alive enough to cause a great amount of pain.
Did I mention anything about how much I hate this! All of this and how I feel has caused me to change a few things in my life and re-evaluate how and why I live my life the way I do. (part of the reason I started this blog so I could vent on the good and bad parts of my life)
Is it worth it? I say yes but only to a point, then you just have to say stop when it becomes to much to handle and mean it, I've said it. (Now I just have to work on showing how much I mean it)

STOP!!!!!!!