I went to see a movie tonight, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. It was a strange movie, but it moved me. I don't know how I can put into words how it made me feel because there were times I was like "what the hell is this and what is going on cuse I don't get it" and other times I was like" I so totally connect with how you feel, I feel that way sometimes when I think too much at night while laying in bed with noone to talk to". It made me think a whole lot after I got out of seeing the movie. I thought about what I'm missing in my life and what I have and how I am not the only one screwed up just like that cuse obviously if someone wrote about it there is someone out there who feels just like that, the feeling of a black hole in your chest and you don't know how to fix it or even if you can. There were times it made my heart feel so good and times when it ached. My heart ached for what I saw cuse I can so relate to the feeling of confusion, happiness, anger, and sympathy.
My heart ached tonight for what I have and for what I will have. I feel so peaceful and relaxed right now because I know I will be able to share those wonderful feeling bad and good with someone someday again, maybe not now but someday and it will be perfect I know it will...........