~ April 2004 ~

I had no clue I would be sitting in my own office right now. So much has changed sense then, I don't remember anything earth shattering that happened in my life then but that was right before my world as I knew it would start to change. It was a nice spring, I was toying around with the ideas of a new job, I got drunk off my ass (still very vivid in my mind now), I was going through the motions of still losing my boyfriend but was dealing, and was just trying to be happy in general with my life as it was.
I wish I could say as of now I am a hundred times happier then I was but..........................No wait a second, I AM!!!! Who am I kidding I couldn't hide how much happier I am in my general being from day to day. I have found contentment with falling asleep at night snuggled with my kitty, and spending a Saturday night with a new friend. I'm so happy this unexpected change of my job happened because it seems to of snowballed into so much more then I ever hoped for. I mean hey things ain't perfect but things seem so much more tolerable now most the time and I no longer get so sleepy driving now that is something to be happy about (much more of those night shifts and I might of hurt me or someone else).
I'm not a super religious person but I thank god for bringing my life to this point. I have sleep, new friends, renewing old friendships, Sunday mornings with the folks, and that special someone back in my life.

Thank you..................................................................